I was this close to making hundreds of thousands and was almost closing in on a million last night, the night before and the night before. Everyday a new idea, a new beginning and cash pouring down while I day dream has been a part of my daily routine, especially at night after I wrap up client work and think about myself. It’s fun. I get an adrenaline rush and for about an hour or so I feel like I am the smartest guy on earth. It feels good. I jot it all down on a piece of notebook, look at it, get up and go for a quick smoke which I can barely finish cause I am in a hurry to shape this plan by tomorrow.Ohh yeah, I want it now. I get it all documented on a piece of paper with ideas, sketches and of course the six digits numbers and sometimes more.
I head to bed and wake up my wife who probably is wondering what the hell do I do so late on the computer. She knows this is what pays the bills but am sure at times she has her doubts. I understand, It’s allgood. Anyways, I wake her up and I tell her “Hey baby, trust me by next year this time we are going to be rich.” She says, “we’ve everything we need right now why do you have to push yourself so hard?” That is when I get a little bummed cause she can’t share my excitement. Whatever. I say to myself “I will show her.” And then it’s tossing and turning all night thinking about the money, the fame and my name everywhere on the web. Whoaaaaaa it’s “Ritu” everywhere. Facebook, Twitter, Digg, Reddit. Newspapers are talking about me, blogs are talking about me…man I am popular!
Then I wake up. Excited. I skip my morning cup of coffee and cigarette and head straight to the computer. I get everything ready to go and start building on this idea. After all, it’s an idea that can’t wait. I mean, come on, this is going to make me thousands if not millions. I pull my notebook out and start flipping pages to see how I can build on it. WTF? This is the stupidest idea ever. This isn’t going to work. Seriously, WTF? Damn it, why was I so freaking excited last night? And now it’s time to get back to work again and build someone else while watching another one of my million raking ideas go down the drain.
I get an idea each night. I dream of something big each night. I plan it out. I wake up in the morning and scratch that and start all over again that night. That’s just who I am. A man who gives birth to ideas day in and day out. None have made it big but one day, one day I will have it made.
Do you ever get that way, or am I just weird?
Ohh wait, this is going to work!! I just had an idea guys and this is going to work. I gotta write it down so I can get on it right away. I will catch you guys later. Yes! this is the one…. hahaha this is going to make me thousands if not millions….
Hi, My name is Ritu. I am a member of SMA (Social Media Anonymous) ;-) & help bloggers and businesses utilize the social web. 
I am totally this person. I have constant big, genre-shattering ideas, but frequently they require a skillset or scope that I don’t currently have the ability to implement, so they get relegated to the “if only” pile the next morning.
This is an area where success breeds success. If you hit one big idea out of the park, it’s more likely people will assist with and subscribe to your subsequent ideas, making each one easier to implement than the las.
@Krisis : I guess we are on the same boat. I am sure we will both be able to hit the shore pretty soon
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Yea, sometimes the biggest roadblock is you and your own self-doubt. I’ve experienced the feeling when I start getting into the nitty-gritty of my ideas.
Well, not every night. But, yeah, happens some coupla times in a week for sure. Sometimes, hangs around for more than a few weeks and then slowly it dawns on me that I’m not yet there!
every now and then i guess…. but that only makes me normal.
Ritu,
I’m coming into the discussion late, but this is the story of my life!